Friday, September 09, 2005
Insonmia
It's 4.55am. Insonmia.... a word that never exist in my dictionary for as long as i could remember (except that 1 day when all hell broke lose...).
just heard the 1st Caltrain for this friday morning went by, bringing those who work in the city north-wards. i wonder what keeps me awake this morning. in fact, when i opened my eyes, it was only 4.30am, barely 2 hours after i went to bed. hmmm....
i guess i am really worried about my future. for once, life as whole looks really uncertain. so, i have decided to leave my comfort zone 1 year ago. enjoyed a year of school, like never before. now what? when reality sets in, what have i got? the truth is, i need to fill my stomach. as i said before, going home is really not an option. it took me alot to get out, in all sense.
henry said he was always impressed by the way i make use of my 'contacts' or resources to get things done. but not this time. i have no network, no contacts and things are not going the way i hope they would. while i am not (yet) regretting my decision, i am really wondering how can i go from here.
still no sign of ZZZ monster........
just heard the 1st Caltrain for this friday morning went by, bringing those who work in the city north-wards. i wonder what keeps me awake this morning. in fact, when i opened my eyes, it was only 4.30am, barely 2 hours after i went to bed. hmmm....
i guess i am really worried about my future. for once, life as whole looks really uncertain. so, i have decided to leave my comfort zone 1 year ago. enjoyed a year of school, like never before. now what? when reality sets in, what have i got? the truth is, i need to fill my stomach. as i said before, going home is really not an option. it took me alot to get out, in all sense.
henry said he was always impressed by the way i make use of my 'contacts' or resources to get things done. but not this time. i have no network, no contacts and things are not going the way i hope they would. while i am not (yet) regretting my decision, i am really wondering how can i go from here.
still no sign of ZZZ monster........
# posted by nic @ 4:54 AM 
