Monday, January 23, 2006
Facing my Fear
last week was an interesting one for me.
i came face to face with my fear. yes, i freaked out at the first sight, and almost lost control of myself. but it did me more good than harm. in fact, i am thankful for the experience.
1st, i knew that i have frens who would be there for me and i can now gladly say that i am totally over the bad episode in my life. also, i appreciate the trust that my frens have in me.
i will cut the story short - it wasn't easy to see 2 people you love go separate ways. there were so much similarities. it was scary at first - like going thru' it (myself) all over again...... yes, tears rolled down for it brought back some very very real pain and heartache.
E came by to comfort me when i told him i needed company. absolutely grateful for his time and the little things he did to make my day better. couldn't ask for more and i cannot thank him enough.
i am flattered by the level of trust my frens had in me, who confided in me their thoughts and emotions during this very difficult time of their lives. with limited resources, i can only offer my listening ears and morale support. i wish i could do more.
most importantly, it forced me to look at my fears in the eyes so that i have a chance to conquer it. and thankfully, i think i did. there are many ways how one deals with fear. many choose to sweep it under the carpet or worse, live in denial. these are health hazards, really. to me, overcoming it is the only way.
i came face to face with my fear. yes, i freaked out at the first sight, and almost lost control of myself. but it did me more good than harm. in fact, i am thankful for the experience.
1st, i knew that i have frens who would be there for me and i can now gladly say that i am totally over the bad episode in my life. also, i appreciate the trust that my frens have in me.
i will cut the story short - it wasn't easy to see 2 people you love go separate ways. there were so much similarities. it was scary at first - like going thru' it (myself) all over again...... yes, tears rolled down for it brought back some very very real pain and heartache.
E came by to comfort me when i told him i needed company. absolutely grateful for his time and the little things he did to make my day better. couldn't ask for more and i cannot thank him enough.
i am flattered by the level of trust my frens had in me, who confided in me their thoughts and emotions during this very difficult time of their lives. with limited resources, i can only offer my listening ears and morale support. i wish i could do more.
most importantly, it forced me to look at my fears in the eyes so that i have a chance to conquer it. and thankfully, i think i did. there are many ways how one deals with fear. many choose to sweep it under the carpet or worse, live in denial. these are health hazards, really. to me, overcoming it is the only way.
# posted by nic @ 10:37 PM 
